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Lately I've been absolutely obsessed with finding my path that I have been neglecting my playing. This past week, I gave a performance in which I actually couldn't let go in. It was bizarre, everytime I set myself to leap off that proverbial diving board I somehow I always fell flat on my face.

Its scary to actually experience this now, I guess I have steadily been running out of time lately and I keep pushing the envelope with performances and practice time. My teachers have been warning me abt this for sometime, but I like most students (esp. college students) was stubborn and ignorant to what would be expected of me once I left school. Music jobs, as enriching as they seem to be don't pay well. Most young musicians (and old) have at LEAST five or six part time jobs.

insane right? Well the crazy thing is most of these jobs pay below, way below min. wage.

So, although you may enjoy the company of your section, or the dynamic of your studio it may not be possible to sustain a comfortable life, much less the level of skill that you possessed in school.

The question is do I go back to school?

Do I drop a gig?

Do I become jaded?

I know this is a phase but I think it is important to choose the right path, even being jaded has its ups and downs.

we'll
see.


Cello Choir performed well tonite. Definitely some bizarre happenings, but that's show business! (not really, but lets pretend)

Maybe next year I should really put more into the programming. Hope it gets added as a class, that will really help. (more driving for me, yay)